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Wednesday, October 11, 2006

Bit of a wobble.

I'm having a bit of a wobble. OK, OK, if I'm going to be truthful, my life so far has been one giant wobble.

At the moment, I'm looking into the possibility of going to uni in Edinburgh. That was the plan for last year, but things got in the way. It seems very appealing right now - change of scene, new people. The whole shebang. Getting away from here, and all the reminders of things I'd like to forget, and all the stress, sounds like what I need. I have blogged about personal-ish things on here, but have been keen to avoid making it too 'dear diary' so you'll forgive me if I don't go into details on here.

It's 'wait and see' time, though. At this stage, I don't know how things will fall. Although I am aware that the decisions I make will have a huge effect. I'm not the bravest, or most confident of people, but I think now it's time I really took charge of things and have more faith in myself to get it right.

7 Comments:

At 1:55 PM, Blogger Jen said...

Suz-you have to do whatever, ultimately, makes *you* happy. If this plan of yours is what you really want, and think will be the best path for you to take, then take it. I was like you (still am really), in that I always worried about how my actions/choices would affect other people. But last year I took the decision to move back home. Even though I was leaving my life in Swansea behind, and, more importantly, my boyfriend. But I did it because I needed to.Wanted to. And this time I wasn't going to let other people's feelings come into the equation.
I can't tell you how liberating that felt, to finally do something just for me.

Suz, as you know, if you need someone to talk to, you've got my email ;)

Thinking of you, and I'm sure you will make the right decision Suz xx

 
At 2:00 PM, Blogger Suz said...

Thank you, Jen - that's so kind ((hug)) You're absolutely right - I think I need to do something for *me* now - I spend so much time worrying about other people, and I think it's starting to make me ill. Will crack on with looking into all the options! It's quite exciting, really! xx

 
At 4:01 PM, Blogger SandDancer said...

Sorry you are having a bit of a wobble but I think your last comment is sounding more positive - thinking of how exciting it is to have different options. You are young and single so if things don't work out quite right for you with Edinburgh, you will still have other options. I know how difficult it is though if you are trying to think about others (like family) but you do need to make the right decision for you. I still have terrible guilt-trips about not living near my family but everyone has their own lives to lead.

 
At 8:19 PM, Blogger Jen said...

Suz- I'm so pleased to hear you sounding more positive! That's great.And, really worrying about other people is all well and good, but if it's got to the point where you're making yourself ill, then , yes, definitely time to reasses things, methinks ;)

Sand Dancer's right-everyone does have their own life to lead. That's why you should go ahead and start living yours the way *you* want. Go for it, trust me, I don't think you'll look back.

xx

 
At 11:12 PM, Blogger Inspector Monkfish said...

Hmm.

Sorry Suz, I was going to say something here, but I read all these comments and have completely forgotten whatever it was I was going to say.

Oh well :)

 
At 11:38 AM, Blogger Suz said...

Thanks everyone! Yup, much reassesment (sp? I don't think that's right) going on. It's so easy to get bogged down in the past and other people and everything, isn't it? On the other hand it's very difficult to be fearless and really go for things. Ooh, but exciting as well - gotta remember that!

 
At 2:59 PM, Blogger Inspector Monkfish said...

...Yes.

As for "reassesment", I believe you were pretty much spot on except for both lots of "s" should be doubled, so "reassessment". "assess" with "re" on the front and "ment" on the end :) lol, you wouldn't want "asses" now, would you ;)

 

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